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The
Tears Didn't Stop...
I
thought about Yawm ul Qiyaamah, and the tears began to fall,
I
thought about the terrible Reckoning, and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about the rape of the Ummah, and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about how we had failed to fulfill the obligations central to this
Deen of Allah, and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about how we slept at night, while they were butchered, and yet
the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about the Mujahid, tortured to death for attempting to escape Kufr
captivity, and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about the hundreds and thousands of Mujahideen in torturous
captivity, and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about those of my sincere Brothers, who had to stay behind
patiently, and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about limbless orphans, the worst victims of war, and yet the
tears didn't stop.
I
thought about the baby girl who had been dehumanised while we watched, and
yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about young Mujahid boys competing to be allowed into training
camps, and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about how we cried tears while they fought till the last drop of
blood, and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about how I would manage on the bridge of Siraat on Qiyaamah, and
yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about wanting my Sons to be born Soldiers Of Allah, and yet the
tears didn't stop.
I
thought about the Mujahids who waited patiently for Firdous, and yet the
tears didn't stop.
I
thought about those who were Shaheed in merely attempting to reach the
battlefield, and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about what atrocities it would take to get my Brothers to Jihad,
and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about how our Fathers and Brothers of the Ummah had failed to
protect us, and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about the man, who had answered the lone cry of one girl in
Afghanistaan, and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about him who smiled upon being martyred with his index finger
raised, and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about Muslims engaging in vain rhetoric about the need for Jihad,
and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about those who had never had the dust of the battlefield enter
their nostrils, and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about what excuses such 'Brothers' would shamelessly offer on
Qiyaamah, and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about my desire to see the beautiful and Noble face of the beloved
Rasoolallah (SAW), and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
thought about Jahannam and burning fires of hell we were to be fuel for,
and yet the tears didn't stop.
I
turned to my Creator in Forgiveness, and in a state of helplessness and
utter dependency,
I
Cried and I Cried and I Cried...
"Allhummar-Zuqni
Shuhaadah
Allhummar-Zuqni Shuhaadah
Allhummar-Zuqni Shuhaadah"
And
yet the tears didn't stop...
I
begged Allah to bestow his Mercy on Me, and My Brothers, and He Mercifully
answered My prayers.
He
Granted me Sleep.
But
then I awoke and the tears within never did stop.
[Sister
SN, UK, 28 Feb 2000]
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